I wanted to tell you for a while now. I wanted to say it as you reached for a teacup in your kitchen that night after we fought about why we always have to eat Chinese food on your floor and then made up. I wanted to say as the moonlight shone in on you as you slept in your bed the first night we made love there. When I felt your heart racing against my chest and your sweet voyeur in Spain when you first saw your roses even though I wasn’t there. But mostly I wanted to say it the last night I saw you, as I held you in my arms, looking down at your precious face knowingly looking up at me, still inside you. Quiet, motionless, but still inside you. I wanted so badly to tell you, that the words each time graced my lips like an imposter, only to fall away like some great lizard that was taken out to sea, to reign its fury upon the dark ocean, alone, unbeknownst to any heron. I pray that you can hear them for what they are, feel them for what they are, and not mar them with the knowledge that they stand apart with your ability to reciprocate them. Please, take them in your heart and feel them with your eyes closed and your soul open for just a moment. My voice speaking them softly in you ear with a kiss. When you smile, when your head lightly moves to dance, when your tongue finds my lips, when you ramble on over a glass of wine, when you sit naked after we’ve made love, when you act boldly, when you laugh, when you squeeze my hand, when you call my name in a gruff whisper, when your heart races on my chest in a close embrace, when you love me.
What I’m sad about is selfish, I’m sad at god’s timing. I’m only a man, and as a man I miss you, I miss you terribly. I miss your kiss. I miss your smile, oh how I miss your smile. But most of all I miss the moment that hasn’t happened yet, the moment you let yourself fall for me, what makes it hard for me is knowing how much you care for me, how much in a way you do love me. How much you would enjoy smiling wryly as you hurled yourself backwards off the cliff and said: catch me, baby. And if I didn’t know that, I could make you a villain, me a victim and soothe myself, but I can’t, because it isn’t the truth, the truth we both know: not today.
I know that you’re not leaving Philippe for me, and I wouldn’t want you to, I would want you to leave him for you. I also know you would never fly a million miles just to see me smile at you, someday maybe, but not today, so I guess I better disappear Sarah. I know you’ll be okay and soon I will be too.
Maybe, just maybe, if god so desires, a day will come when as friends we will find ourselves accidentally strolling along the white cliffs of Dover, or the mountain rocks of Mendocino, or the bonny emerald north of the Scottish seaboard, or the glistening harbor of old New York. And from the heights in the stars amongst the angels whose arms will cradle us in a moment neither of us was told about but knew like our oldest happiness. We will look into each others eyes and know: it is today, it is today. And whether that day is tomorrow, or next week, or next year, or next lifetime; I will finally get to tell you to your sweet face, the face that I will miss more than I could ever tell, that I love you, I love you, Oh baby I love you. And you will smile wryly and close your eyes and say: catch me, baby; and fall.
I was a funny little man, needed a friends support just to make it out of bed everyday, but luckily I was blessed with the best friends in the league. For the rest of the day, I needed god’s help, but luckily I was blessed with the best god in the league too, and boy did he come to play. That crazy god, always comes to play.
Във филма става дума за един таксиметров шофьор и една манекенка. Не знам как се казва, но е много шик. Филма. И текста от него. И музиката към филма.